Watch Me Burn BPOV teaser

Not beta'd...you guys asked for this...crazy betches.

Silence swelled around me when she hesitated. My heart lodged in my throat and I couldn’t breathe. I didn’t want to. I didn’t care if I ever did again if her answer was what I thought it would be. I’d always prided myself on being a strong person. I always thought I could face any obstacle, overcome anything life threw at me. I was a fool. Because this was breaking me. It had broken me.

“Bella...”

“Oh, God,” I choked, tears stinging my eyes, breaking free and sliding down my cheeks. “No. Please, no.”

“I can’t say for certain yet, but the dark masses are still visible.”

“Why? Why are they still there,” I cried. “After everything...they’re supposed to be gone. Why is this happening to me? What did I do?”

“Bella, this isn’t your fault. You can’t blame yourself.”

“Then who do I blame?” I screamed, my body wracked with sobs as my hands slammed on the table. “Do I blame God? He’s supposed to love me! Did I fail him? Did I not measure up to his expectations?”

“Bella―”

“No,” I spat. “Don’t say anything else. Your platitudes mean nothing to me. I have been through hell. You have cut out parts of me and you have burned my organs. You have infected me with poison and you have injected me with every drug known to mankind. I don’t care how sorry you are. You were supposed to fix me. I don’t give a fuck that you can’t guarantee anything.” I pressed my hands to my chest and looked at her through blurry eyes. “Why can’t you fix me? Please, God, why? Why can’t I be fixed? I just want to be normal. I want to be a woman. Having children is the most basic act of being a female. Why can’t I have that. Why?”

“If you want to talk to someone I can recommend―”

“No! I don’t want to talk to anyone! I don’t want to be broken. I want to be me. How can I tell him? How can I tell him that I can’t give him children?” I jumped from the table and clutched the paper gown around my waist. “Fuck this and fuck you. Fuck God, too. All of you can go to hell. Get out. Let me have some dignity. It’s the only thing I have left.”